I've been feeling really ill and lack of energy for the past two weeks. I'm not all there at the moment lol. Been crying alot but still don't know why i'm feeling hurt.

Also been extremly tired and sick, keep missing cadets and i really miss it when i don't go
I had a newish cadet send me a message on facebook earlier asking me if i'm comming back cause he was put in my team and wants me to be there to lead it, which is kinding cool to hear that made me smile and relise that cadets is great yeah yeah clare, I love camo ROFL

Anyways yeah just to my friends that i see often, if i snap at you or seem like i'm anoyed at you, i'm most likey not its just other things happpening in my life. I hope it don't upset you, and if i do please tell me, i would like to know.

On a lighter note, I love paramores new album and can't wait to see them in December.

I just came across this photo [link] this must have been taken like a year and a half ago. Oh how i miss the art room gang, emz, jade, stacey, me lol was great fun. Spent most of our high school years doing art rofl well actuly taking stupid photos like this LOL. We need a reunion even tho we all see each other we should recreate a scene like this lol. The high school uniform, the stupid cultural masks, CHOCOLATE milkshake, donnie the rabbit (best creation ever but sadly his head fell off and now he has a broken ear poor thing) can't forget that lol, this is the only thing i actully miss about high school the rest was well SHIT.

I hate the world just like stuff that happens. Its a sick and twisted world, which is just plain selfish, built on a fondation of violence and money. I don't know but it needs to change, i am only one person i won't mke a difference but i know that if i take that attitude nothing will happen. I am one person who can make a difference and so are you!

Is there anyone who wants to join me in doing something good, something nice which will make people stop, look and see. I'm thinking of doing a huge art piece something meaningful and helpful to people. Anyone in? Got any ideas? i'm going to start it in luton then expand it further if it works.

I passed, well appart from chemistry but that was never gonna happen rofl.

Anyways even tho i passed history, biology and art, i just about passed history and biology with like D and E. But heres the problem yeah i got the best grade in the college for art yeah its an A and yeah i'm that good i got 101 marks out of 100 rofl. but now my teacher has this lets get a portfolio together to your going art college/university. I don't wanna well unless its in a different country OMG that would be awesome, but won't happen rofl. So yeah i dunno what to do. She didn't look impressed with the recent photos i took to use in my art final piece so she might change her mind rofl.

So yeah I hope everyone else got a good shock

If yes I got the three things thats a must to bring on a journey. On my 3 hour jouney to soul suvivor i found this out lol.

First - Marker pens- when your really board write stupid things and smileys on your mates great fun.

Next - Paper- to write on with your markers to ask people in the other cars if they are going the same way, or to communicate to a bus full of young japanese people at why they kept smiling and waving at you (I soon relised i was wearing my tokyo top rofl, and that they were going to soul suvivor) Or write a free hug sign when you get to your destination or a stupid question on it that is mostly a yes to everyone. Mine was do you like paramore to over 10,000 christians ROFL of course most said yes.

Lastly - Gaffer tape- to tape the mouth of that anoying person you were made to sit with or if you get lazy at holding up your sign stick it up with tape.

Hope this helps in giving you an insight to my crazyness and also if you have them long journeys to make.